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Dear Friends,

Mystery Pain Solved??!!

As you may notice right from the start the question marks mixed in with the exclamation marks. That will be there for sometime since though I want to believe the problem is solved and the fact that I think what was found on Tuesday answers a lot of questions, however, for those Lost fans out there we all know, answers only beget more questions and  there are still so many more questions I have.

To date, this is what I know. There was a surgical clip found pressing against my femoral nerve causing the entrapment. The doctor was surprised to have found the nerve with all the scare tissue from my previous surgery. They plan was to look around for anything obvious then if they couldn’t find anything to snip the nerve. They found something and it was removed. Did they keep it? I do not know. I was so in shock I forgot to ask some obvious questions. Due to the complex nature of all this that is all I can say for now.

The question of what exactly this clip was and how it wound up in stuck like it was is one of a zilion questions Jen and I have. When will I be back to work? How long am I expected to be hurting? Are all among these questions and I am going to wait until Monday before I think about them again.

Right now I want to focus most on what matters the most, and that is the vast amount of people who expressed so many well wishes and prayers for me and Jen. Regardless of what answers come and what do not. Regardless of what happens on Monday I owe so many people an unrepayable debt.

Since I am VinentClark I know two things for certain.

1. Nothing is that simple

2. I don’t give up.

I may make things more complicated than they are or over simplify them, I hang on when I should let go, but I am alive today because I didn’t let go. It is a blessing and a curse.

A big part of who I am is a reflection of the people I have known. Everyone I have met has left their mark on me, good or bad.  Everyone from wife to the woman that wheeled me out of the hospital compose the Vince you know today. Then there are the people I have never met that prayed for a complete stranger because of their love for those people so very close to me. For them, there is so much I still want to say and write, however the reality is, it will take time, and it is will be a never ending project, but it is something I will never give up on and I sure as hell will never forget.

There are so many people to thank and I am so different because of those people. Then there is one of those six people that read this blog so an extra thanks to Lisa. Yes there are so many names like Denis and Bucky and if it takes me the rest of my life to thank all of them individually and personally I will.

Though I want to know more than anything what was done to me I also want to focus on what is far more important, what was done for me.

I really feel that I found the Green Valley’s of Chile, the valleys I have been searching for. I also know the story of Nando and Canasa did not end there. Life is an infinite loop and I know there are more races and more hurdles, but I am trying really hard not to think about that. I know there is more to this than can be summed up into a single blog post.

For now, I am taking the weekend off I am going to snuggle into the bliss of happiness in which all is perfect. I am not going to dwell on those that are to blame, but venerate those who have helped.

There is nothing more that can be done. Work, bills, and all the uncertainty that lies ahead will wait. I am going to focus on what matters most in this world and that is …

Thank you,

Vince