It has been one year since the darkest of my days started to end. The only ray of hope was pinned on a doctor you had recommended to me. I am not sure that people can fully grasp how unbelievably bad things were, how bad the pain was, and how many drafts of my “farewell” letter I had written.
One year ago today I remember laying awake thinking that if this appointment with this doctor did not work out I simply would not have what it would take to continue this life. I was depleted and there was nothing left.
One October 13 I had an appointment with the doctor your had recommenced, Dr. Kroop. The doctor put his and on my shoulder and told me “don’t worry we will fix you.” And that he did.
Dr. Kroop spent countless hours battling doctors and my insurance to get me the help that I desperately needed. He was a light house for me to ensure that I would not get lost at sea and eventually brought me to shore by strong arming a surgeon to put a scope in me to find the problem and convinced an insurance company to pay for it to allow for the road to recovery to begin.
One year later things are not perfect. The years of pain and especially the nightmare of 2008 when things were at its worst took a huge toll on me, physically, mentally, and financially. I still struggle to put the pieces of my life back together. But it is a life I really want to put back together and a life I want to live. Everyday I see and feel the difference between now and where a year ago.
I remember that night, going to sleep, knowing that this was my last hope, that my life it was going to be saved or it wasn’t, it would have been one or the other. What most people don’t know and I am embarrassed to admit is what I would have done if that appointment turned out different.
So all my goofy posts and odd sense of humor is proof that my prayer that night was answered. The place that I live in is very nice, the rains came and I am not curled into a ball. I have hope beyond the next doctor’s appointment.
So Lisa, from the bottom of my heart I want to thank you, again, as I have done before and I will always do for many years to come, thanking you for giving me that name and number a year ago that truley changed and saved my life. Wherever I go from here, my friends and family will be told the story and the legend of Lisa Loomis and of what you had done for me, this co-worker of yours, this person you had known for less than a year. This debt I owe you is a debt I can never repay. The best I can do is to pay down the interest by being a good person and helping others as you helped me.
With all the love in my heart, Thank You Lisa
Vincent
Yes, I am blogging it right now and am not even going to try to sound professional, not because professionalism is dead simply I am tired.
I need to start off with a stern warning to EVERYONE that this is the first, last, and ONLY place I better see the Hulu gene@#$. Anywhere. If we all agree never to use those three words in that combination and file it away with (CENSORED) and other words we thought would be best to never be formed and soon to be forgotten. Still where am I going with this? Simple. My credibility. This is what I think of the Internet and the people that comment on it. I may not always be right but I am rarely ever wrong. I have a thing for contrast as well as well -embed- joke, sometimes so obscure I don’t remember it the next day.
I fit into a group that is networked differently than most. This causes me to take a somewhat unique view of the Internet. Now I was thinking about saying something like, “this doesn’t mean it is any better than the next guys, it is just my view …” But I am not because my view is a bit more enlightened than most. I have more experience with a wider range than most people. I have been programming Flash since 1999 and have experience with Flash 3 through Flash CS4 AS3. I worked diligently to ensure that our component of Disney Online looked the same on Netscape 4x as it did with IE 4. It was 2004 before Disney Online permanently banished the 4x browsers. Due to Netscape’s poor successor to its 4x browser and its pacular skip to Netscape 6.
I worked to retire detect.dll a proto web service before web services were defined. I worked even harder to dispel the myth about “magic” components that go inside the computer and get the “real” information about what the computer was. The transition to Flash 4 to 5 was painfully slow because people believed that this DLL running on a web server was better than JavaScript. When I learned about headers and packet sniffers I was able to convince the director of engineering that detect dll looked at the user agent and based upon a yes no question put out code to determine if it has Flash or not. This was communicated to the browser via JavaScript.
I had to explain to the staff engineer the difference between JavaScript and JScript. The differences was as subtle as window.document.boo and document.boo. The same differences that separated IE and Netscape
I saw annoying differences that had to be filtered through if then statements as I was trying to push for integrating new features for newer browsers while maintaining the same Disney experience one would expect from a 2004 disney.go.com/today/index.html
This is the Internet I see. Not the Internet I read about or an Internet explained to me by a smarter co-worker. The browser war of today is not the browser war of 2004. I isn’t about who got online first, but about who has done the most while online. Only a handful of people have been in meetings with marketing, VPs, developers, and engineers.
There is an inherint dager to the Internet. It amplifies group think to unimaginable lengths. Take Hulu for example. I see executives scrambling to make sense of this technology while completely ignoring all the lessons learned in the past. It goes like this.
Prime Time shows this time last year were broadcast FREE. Hulu is a logical place to view Lost. This is where the greatest concern of the big ugly revenue gobbler is. Now due to the poor management of the Entertainment industry I did not know when Community was on. Is saw some commercials for it, looked funny, and I missed it. The permire of Office too. I was relived to find them on Hulu. I might have paid for the Office but not Community. I had all the seasons of the Office and really wanted to see it. Community, I was on the fence for and $1.99 for standard def on Amazon. Really wouldn’t do it for me. I would not have had the patience to hunt down and install plug-ins to view it on NBC’s site (granted this can be interchanged to annoying ABC NBC FOX players) So I am waiting for episode 2.
I remember when the Microsoft pitchman came to talk to us about .NET. Enthusiastic about it, we had nothing to build on, no compilers, and no intrest. That really never stoped us though. We were always building our skill set, using what was new to see if we can use it to improve our work and then see if we can get management to buy into it.
This is a rough sketch of an idea about black holes, time, energy, mass and gravity.
Lately I have had a resurgence in my fascination of the constructs of the universe. Mainly in the areas of black holes. The idea of using infinity as a mathematical number does not sit well with me. If something archives infinity then it must have approached infinity. What would then be the last number reached before declared infinite? Oddly I think I might be able to shed some light on this.
Opposites
If there is one lesson this Universe has taught us is that there is always an opposite. This begs the question, “Is the absence of something its opposite?” Is the opposite of gravity the absence of gravity or anti gravity? Is this the same as the opposite of lightness is darkness? If light is generated using photons then this would me that anything that is not a photon is the opposite of a photon? As one could imagine the opposite game is a very slippery slope.
For the purpose of this post we will focus on the opposite of time and gravity. Which could be one in the same.
Gravity is caused by matter. Would then anti-matter cause anti-gravity? Simply putting anti in front of something does not make it an opposite, or even real. If E=MC^2 then we know that there is a relationship between mass and energy. Would then Energy be the opposite of mass?
Jumping Ahead
Since I am not a scientist I am not going to attempt to “prove” anything, instead toss my idea out there.
Mass generates gravity while energy generates time. We exist in the Universe because of the energy bound within the mass of an atom. When a black hole collapses onto itself this energy is being squeezed out of the atoms and subatomic particles. The Hawking radiation is the last breath of this process. Hawking’s is incorrect in thinking that the black hole is leaking its substance and will then evaporate. Though the black hole will eventually dissipate once all of its energy is finally dispersed but it will not evaporate in the sense Hawking describes. Instead, without any energy and being strictly mass the black hole will loose its anchor to time and we will simply move passed it. The information retained in the black hole will still exist however will be outside of the jurisdiction of time and thus be undetectable to us. This would make sense of Hawking’s claim that the information is retained in a different dimension in which the black hole never existed. The information would be retained in a dimension outside of time which would be no time the opposite of eternity.
Eternity is governed by all time in which all areas of it are instantly accessible. Once matter is introduced a dimple in space occurs and time is then slowed down and a timeline forms.
The ultimate fate of the Universe
As the Universe draws to a close the energy of the universe will be separated from the matter that has capsuled it since the the beginning. Energy and Mass will become dislodged in time. All of the energy since the beginning of the Universe is still with us, but undetectable because we are following a timeline and energy is not. What we are in now is when Mass and Energy’s paths cross. When all of the energy is released from Mass the Mass of this Universe will be lost in time as the energy dissipates into eternity. Once the separation is complete the eternity or infinity of the energy will move across all points and planes of existence until it is finally comes together in critical mass creating another big bang. Once that occurs the matter lost in time will be pulled out of its notime state and eternity will end and the universe will be reborn.
Where does the Universe come from and where does it go?
Not that the fiscal year means squat to VincentClark.com it is still ending. As always when there is a market milestone the VincentClark network likes to make a host of promises that it most likely will not keep especially when Vincent Clark takes a month or two off from posting. Here is a list of topics and projects we hope to complete, start, or at least encourage someone to do.
Finish the list of projects that we hope to complete, start, or at least encourage someone to do.
Figure out the big bang, black holes, gravity, energy, and time.
Prevent an Apocalypse.
First Edition of Two Perfect Cents released.
Introduce the first story from the Numbered Verse titled Eve and Lilly.
Create a multimedia multidimensional vehicle for story telling.
part 1
On August 26th I got news that I am still struggling to accept almost a week later. My Uncle Chris fell asleep with the lord after succumbing to his long and brutal bought with cancer. As the many stories of my Uncle Chris flow through my head I find myself in a position I am rarely in, I simply do not know what to say.
My heart is breaking on so many different levels I don’t even know where to begin. I think about his wife and kids. His nieces and nephews, siblings, and friends, and how much we will all miss him.
I have his voice trapped in my head with no plans ever letting it go. I play it over and over like a record. Each time I feel like crumbling to the floor, but I don’t, because it reminds me of the man he was. For anyone that knows my Uncle Chris knows what I mean. My Uncle Chris had this ability to speak in a loud room without ever having to talk over the crowd. It was almost like magic.
If you were to my Uncle Chris in a room you would have found a humble man that was fully satisfied with the man that he was. If you wanted to hear about his days as an F-15 fight pilot you would have to pry it out of him or get it from someone else. Despite being a decorated and well respected fighter pilot, that was something he had done in the past, something he was very proud of, but not what he wanted to be remembered for. My Uncle Chris will be best known for being a good father, a good husband, and a damn good Uncle. We respected my Uncle not because he was an Officer in the Air Force, a Fighter Pilot, or the fact that he traveled around the globe in a C-5 during the first Gulf War. We respected my Uncle because of that man he was when we knew him, for the way he treated us, and for the respect that he gave to us.
My Uncle Chris was the kind of man that made you a better person knowing him, I know I am, and I have no intention for letting his voice ever to escape my memory.
8^413 is the largest number, there is no number larger. This number is so large that if you add 1 to it, it will absorb the additional number because if it incremented then 8^413 would not be the largest number, which it clearly is therefor you cannot add to it. Now what about negative numbers? simple. The span can not exceed 8^413. The V-Limit, Limits of Limits, The maximum sum of all numbers.
Now since I don’t want to have to compute the v-limit we will talk in pseudo limits. So the mathematicians can follow along.
Set 8=8^413
If you include negative numbers then the span needs to equal 8.
-4 through 4 = 8
If you have fractions then the sum of the component parts cannot exceed 8.
Set 1000 to 8 // 8 was set to 8^413
Introduce .01 Then if counting from 0 then the v-limit cannot exceed 10. If you allow negative numbers the range would be -5 to 5.
The GooglePlex and the V-Limit.
Since the 10(10100) May appear larger than the v-limit in reality it is not. Since there are only 8(413) numbers allowed the incremental space between the number is greater than 1. The increments of the Googleplex must be arranged in such a way that there are only 8(413) iterations in the defined span.
I cannot stress the importance of the defined span. In order to operate in a finite space name space rules must be written ahead of time in order to make the mathematical problem valid. Too often mathematicians fall into the trap of adding apples and oranges. When deliberating on a mathematical problem there must be a header included in the equations establishing what portions of the occupying reality will be used and how those portions will operate.
In pseudo mathematics where infinity is discussed a popular paradox would be the statement that there are as many numbers between 0 to 1 as there are between 0 to 2. Even under Vince’s Law one can argue that this is true. If we define VL(temporary number until I can find a better one) to occupy the fractions between 0 to 1 and then the same between 0 to 2 disseminating a value twice the size of the latter then it might appear as proof that there are as many numbers between 0 to 1 as there are between 0 to 2. This statement is both true and false. Binary mathematicians hold on and bare with me.
The VL is constant, but contingency based
We will set two name-spaces.
Set n1 to 0-1
Set n2 to 0-2
If one was applying the VL to 0-1 is not the same as apply it to 0-2. In 0-1-2 the VL would mandate that half of the numbers be allocated to 0-1 as there is from 1-2. The amount of numbers between 0-1 is half of what it is from 0-2. In another separate instance in which the name-space starts at 0 and ends at 1 the distance between the numbers is 1/2 that of the previous name-space. Therefor there are as many numbers in n1 as there are in n2. However you cannot double n1 to equal n2 because the two sets occupy two different name-space and cannot coexist in the same area of understanding because of incompatible name-spaces.
